Hello to everyone, Hoping you are having a good day. Yes I'm in prison because I have done some very bad things. I've been using drugs since my teenage years and thought I could handle it but that s not true. I used to have a house, cars, job, motorcycle and a good life but drugs took that all away. Everyone one I knew and thought were my friends were drug addicts. Now I'm back in prison because I violated parole again due to drugs. I'm so tired of it and was trying to get off of it but was doing all the wrong ways. Now I'm clean and sober and so happy. I don't want to ever go back to that lifestyle again. I'm looking for new friends who aren't addicts. Sitting here all alone my old life gone and not knowing what is waiting for me in the future is terrifying. I feel so alone and abandoned but that was something I did to myself. My one friend Rose has been a godsend but I hurt her too and am so sorry for that. I'm trying so hard to be a better person and need guidance. Someone who understands what I'm going through and the battles I'm fighting and the battles I have yet to fight. I'm also very excited about the future too. When I get out I want to have my own food truck business. I'm actually a chef and LOVE to COOK! I make really good tasty treats and would like to start a fudge and taffy business in here but have no funds to get the ingreadients that I need to get started. I want to go out and enjoy the world and explore all the little secrets it has. But this is all new to me and I don't know how to do this. I have feelings now that I've always tried to bury with drugs and coped with the bad things in life with drugs. Now drugs are no longer there and drugs made things far more worse than how I felt at the time. They made the bad feelings go away and I felt good but now realize that was all a lie. I'm trying to learn new coping skills and having do accept and deal with my feelings but it really really helps to have someone to talk to and am hoping that would be you. So if you could be so kind as to just drop off a email saying hi with a stamp I'll write you back. ...(more)